ChocolateGal...

ChocolateGal · Joined: 29 Jul 2007 Posts: 1868

Hallo My Dear Friends,

I've haven't been able to get back to everyone in a few weeks, and I do apologize for that, as it's either been far too busy or I've just felt like dying (I'm sorry, it's true). Nothing has really brightened up; people still think I'm weird and stupid, and I've been tagged regularly on facebook (I don't have facebook so some people think they can say what they like).

However, about a few weeks ago I totally broke down, and said to my mum that I wanted to kill myself, and that my life is not worth living, and she told me that she could organize a councillor for me, but nothing has happened in to weeks, and I feel weird and scared whenever I speak to people about the feeling of depression. I think my mum has finally started to take me seriously, but my friends at school aren't. Only two people at school know, and my mum, and you guys here.

Thank you so much for caring about me, as it does really mean a lot. I'm thinking about starting up a blog, which I'll hopefully be able to update regularly. Any thoughts / ideas?

Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart
*huggles*
Choco

Vitani · Joined: 28 Nov 2006 Posts: 6665

Just glad to know you are safe darling heart...

We were worried about you.....You have plenty of friends here who miss you when you aren't around!

Are you 'back' now? I hope so...

As for Mum...Try talking to her about it again, and let her know that you find it difficult to discuss....She may just think its teenaged angst, so not taking it seriously. On the other hand, if things have been very busy...It might have just genuinely slipped her mind...

Eeeee...I'm so happy to see you Very Happy

*huggles and crams your pockets with cookies*

ChocolateGal · Joined: 29 Jul 2007 Posts: 1868

Thankies *massive hugs*

I think I'm 'back' now, I recently started role playing again, and have come back to check on all of the sites I'm on.

Hm.. I think my mum might think it's teenage moods, but she has been really busy lately too.

As for me, I've been quite sick for about 3 days, and this is my second day of school. I've been shaking due to cold, but my face is bright red. I don't have a temperature, but I have a huge headache, I feel like I'm going to vomit and I haven't eaten since yesterday. Though I might go and cook myself some pasta in a minute. I have solo performances (in music) tomorrow, but I think I might actually be too sick for that as well. I might even have the week off.

Anyway, english and music practice to do, as long as I don't throw up over my trombone or oboe.

Thanks for the support
*More hugs*
Choco

Cocodri · Joined: 03 Jan 2007 Posts: 551

Do you think it could just be nerves over the solo performances?

Pasta ia good - nice solid carbs always calm me and help settle my stomach, as long as I don't overeat Embarassed

Ginger - like ginger tea, ginger ale - will help with nausea, as will mint if you have just some peppermints, Altoids, like that.

Just little home remedies - not meant to replace a doctors care yadda yadda yadda.

I'm so glad you've decided to come back to us though Very Happy

ChocolateGal · Joined: 29 Jul 2007 Posts: 1868

I don't really think so. I don't get nervous with music, as I'm fairly competent with it. I think I may have got my friends cold though, that she got from camp Rolling Eyes

I'm at home today as well. Only person in the house actually, my parents are both out today. I might cook myself up more pasta again.

Hmm... my mum's always bragging about the mystical properties of ginger. I remember at this music festival I had this delicious ginger drink. I might make something like that!

I'm glad I've come back too. You guys are the only people I've really talked to for a few days.

wolfgirl159357 · Joined: 07 Aug 2009 Posts: 19967

a hard hitter for colds is tea with honey very wonderful, as i somewhat know what your feeling with depression though i am sure you are about 50x worse i feel sometimes as if the world hates me or something and just like yesterday i felt really emo :/

ChocolateGal · Joined: 29 Jul 2007 Posts: 1868

Aww, wolfie, you poor thing *huggles*

However, I have some tea with lemon. I could probably through in some ginger too!

Cocodri · Joined: 03 Jan 2007 Posts: 551

We all have an emo day now and then. Emo weeks even. Rolling Eyes

Which is why I love having SBF to come to, visit with nice people, and get excited over some silly cyber cat that won an event or a new breed that someone is breeding one of for me, or sharing some of my crazy critters. It isn't just a great place to escape the real world (yeah, I WISH I had a few million in RL) but there are good people here, too.

(((((group hug)))))))

Cowgirls Rule · Joined: 29 Apr 2007 Posts: 10721

Aww...Choco. I know how hard it may be, but never loose hope.

*hugs Choco*