[rant]//[ending]

[Sterling]

You know when things just kinda get boring? Like, the latest and greatest thing, and in 2 weeks, you're interested in something totally different. Yep. I has that disease of always wanting something different. So, a few weeks ago I took a break ... which didn't turn out too well and lately I've been just peering on, and getting off, not interested in anything. Not even my own freaking thread!

That and I've recently gone over a few things around here, and learned that there is such a thing as reality. This isn't a reality. This is some buissiness. Not a community, not a 'family', but a running, growing, money-craving buissiness. Seriously. That's what it is. And your spending money on a buissiness, profiting this company. They make changes to make more money, and seem uncaring and ignorant that there are humans on the other side of the screen that take this site seriously.

So, when I'd escape onto here, for a stress-relife, I'd contribute and ect ... thinking that I was reiliving stress, when really, I added more work and things for me to do to keep projects up and running. Like the SSA, pfft, look how great that turned out. -rolls eyes- Now I'm trying to juggle making a new variation with Cowgirls and slmad. I know I'm the one who put myself into this possiition, but really. After a while my thread start to get ignored, and I'm the one cleaning it up.

I also don't like being told what I can and can't say. So, I've been playing on a site where swear words are used constantly and the Mods [or Admins] are hackers. This other site is absolutly ginormous. And I like it there better. I have a right to say almost whatever I want according to the American Bill of Rights, why is the TOS here on SBF contradictory? Oooo, flaming, the whole world is going to die if someone has a heated discussion! Oh no! >.>

To conclude, I am permently leaving SBF. Like it or not, that's life. I don't want sypathy, or 'Noooo! Don't leave!!'. That stuff is crap. Auctions will be posted soonish. I am not doing this because I want something, or more attention. I just wanted to share that I AM leaving and my thoughts and reasons. If you have an oppinion about what I said above, I'd like to see your reasoning.


-tips hat- mkay, then.

[milon]

Somehow, I should have known that after I reported you for your badgering you'd be dancing on hesitation of anger.

I'm sorry, sincerely sorry. I don't have the energy to give you a real descriptive and poorly constructed excuse. I'm just sorry. The virus of reality comes hailing down on us all at one point, I'm sorry that for you it's more harsher than usual.

Yes, this is a business, Sterling. Once you're an individual stuck in society expected to make your own way in this world, you'll understand how the money solely revolves on profits of anothers hard earn.
This IS a community, maybe if you don't see it like that, then I can't nor do I have any desire to persuade you of otherwise. I'm just sorry that you feel somehow alienated and think that you aren't part of the large, global family.

You're right, biologically and logically, we are not a family. We don't even know each other, but what's so wrong about that, darling? At some point in your life, you might come to depend on the stability of another of whom you don't really know for the emotional/mental reassurance. At times, just talking to someone you don't know and having them listen without fussing yourself of the confrontation the next day is what you need.

Not everyone has sure and quick response from others. Things take time, patience is the key in life with all aspects, there's nothing no matter how fake or real that is going to change that.

You learn to deal with things after awhile, if it's just a case of uncertain rejection, I doubt that's the deal for you. You are a well known, contributing, devoted and honoured member of this...game, even if you suspect otherwise.

The rules and regulations are to keep peace. I'm sure the older you get, the more exposure you'll acquire to things you don't necessarily agree with. Every person has a unique set of fingerprints, just like they all have an opinion. No matter how hard you try to think otherwise, that's a fact of life. And in these circumstances, we either deal and live in some semblance of harmony or else we live solely to fight for personal morals. Not everyone can corrupt another, not everyone is going to agree with what you say and when this happens, public humiliation seems to be the reflexive reaction - causing battles of intelligence and support from friends that are pressured by picking the wrong side or not having the answer we want. In other words, we adhere by these rules for this game so that we can avoid arguments, bickering and feathers to ruffle the wrong way.

Of course, you could always tell me that we have feathers to ruffle otherwise we wouldn't have them in the first place, and that's accurate but not the most resourceful of answers.

I'm really, really sorry to see you go Sterling - after everything this is the end to the story written in the ink that I flinched at thinking of.

I wish you well in life, I hope that you change your mind, and if not, twas nice being an acquaintance, fellow accomplice, and rival with you.

- Kat

[Queso]

[ChocolateGal]

Whaaa??? You only just came back!!!!!

Oh Ster,i would have to agree to what Kat and Queso said..

We don't know each other but that doesn't mean we are all serial killers...

Please don't leave Ster for another site that could mke you even depressed... swear words..... hackers...... oh we can be like completetly pissed off with each other....

Please don't leave, your a special part of SBF too. We love you!!

[Cowgirls Rule]

Ster, please do not leave, you have been a great friend to me on here, and when you left the first time, I felt really compleatly alone, please do not leace. But if you must, I wish you luck in your life. Ster, even though, we may not know each other in RL, but still, we are like one huge family here, supporting each other, and so on. Please maybe sometimes, just drop in to see what is going on a say hi to your friends, please do not leave, I will feel alone, with no one to help me and guide me. You have really guided me and inspired me Ster.

[Sterling]

I don't think you guys seem to be getting it. I'm leaving practically because of the care that almost every user shows on here. I wasn't mad because you reported me, I could seriously care less. And I'm not leaving here out of spite, either. I'm leaving to another site because the words people use, the insults that run wild, the creepy old guys that pollute the site, because I like that. It has intrest. I like being able to be let loose from school, and go be sarcastic and rude to my friends online without them taking me seriously. I like how, on there, people are people. People who aren't really good influences, where we can rebel and riot however and whenever we want. When you can make clubs against something, like now they have MTV ads, and people are flaming them for that. Like, on the forum I hang out on there, it's called the GD. General Discussion. We have our own rules and act as one big civil war. Like, no one clicks links because 50% of the time it leads to dirty things, there are mules and trolls and prommies. We use the term 'epic fail' a lot, and namedrops are everywhere. One of the things I've found on it is this saying:
One girl: "GD, I'm depressed! =["
Other Girl: "Go kill yourself! LOL!"
At the bottom of the image it says, "The GD. We could help, but we won't"

But, strangly, your words hit a soft spot and I can't take it. It's not stress, it's the emotions I seem to be getting from emotion-less words. Obvioulsy, I'm terribly confused.

Kat, there's no reason for you to be sorry. I was being a pain in the neck and close-minded. The least I could say is sorry.

Queso, I'm not interested in going into details. I'm packing things up, and leaving. Period.

Choco, I'm almost sure that the other site won't make me depressed. And, I guess someone else'll have to fit that 'special part'.

[Queso]

*sigh*

Drama and apathy gets old quickly, beleive me. Step back and look at the players on that site, do you want to become like them? If you hang around people long enough, you start to become like them without realising it. If you want to adopt a general mood of sinical apathy twords life because thats how the "cool" peple act, then I guess I don't know you as well I as thought.

[Odelette]

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Sterling, you do have a point. This site is well, doesn't allow as much freedom, as some of us would like. It has many restrictions, and some are just unfair. And if we try to fight it, well, we'll obviously be turned down. It's just simple like that. Some people could put up with it, and others must go. And I can totally see where your coming from. Doing the same thing, over, and over, and over again, is getting tiring. There's no point, to try and catch up with everything going on in SBF. It's quite ridiculous to see people spending money, buying tokens, for a "non-real" site, just so that they could make a variation? It is totally up to you, what you do with your money. But maybe try to spend it more wisely? Anyways, it's practically the same reason I left. It's getting BORING. And Sterling can do whatever she likes. Plead and beg if you must, for her to stay, but I think she'll feel better at the other site. So bye Sterling! =]

[milon]

Be safe ~

[Cowgirls Rule]

Ster, please be safe like Kat said, I wish you luck.

[Charlie1]

You're leaving too. Well I see many people are leaving SBF now. I wish you luck Sterling, you were a nice player.

[ChocolateGal]

nobody can fit you special part...

[PinkStar]

*sigh* *sigh* RAWR!! Stop Leaving peoples!!

Sterling we will miss you!!! Maybe we will see you around on another site? I dont understand why you are leaving, I am sad but maybe you are just trying to get attention,, I dont know.. I wish you well in life to and I hope some day you will return because if you do I will be standing in front of you with a big plate of my cookies and my famous apple cider.

I guess we are calling off your topic in Contests and Community Event.. Unless I can take over But It will be fine if you are stopping it, I could continue it..

Yeah I cant remember my last thing so ok,,

Pinkie <2

[shadow_spinner]

You know, this reminds me of one of my many mottos for life:
"Life is like an enormous chess game. You can win, you can lose, you can come out even. Or, you can skip the game entirely and just mess around with the playing pieces."

[shadow_spinner]

And yes, the sappyness/bordering on insincerity gets to me at times, as well. I mean really, folks, you can't possibly fall into spiraling depression for everyone who leaves.