Life Sucks At The Moment...

[ChocolateGal]

Don't you have that month were life isn't very nice... Throws you in the gutter... pushes you over... puts you on hold...

That's happened to me for about a month and i'm beggin it to stop... turn my life back on again... presses plays... loves you again... not screaming in my face...

My family has more 'important' things to do... no-one seems to listen... except the cat... who falls asleep half way through *weak smile*... no-one seems to love me anymore... they seem to be putting on a mask....

School isn't any better... extra homework... harder subjects that push you to the limit... i often get head ahces....

After shcool activites just plain sucks... i can't seem to do anything right... i have to get up at 5:15 in the morning to go swimming.... and i suck at that too... i haven't had a proper nights sleep in about 2 weeks.... and i'm not going to get any sleep ins soon..

I suck... my boby shape... excessivly sweating.... to fat... to broad shouldered... i'm ugly (seriously, i am) i haven't had a " oh your looking very pretty today" scince i was 3.... my hair is disagreeing with me... nothing is right....

Do you guys love me? or is that a fake as well...

Why can't i go to bed and slep until it's all over... maybe... di- SLEEP!!

I'm sorry for rambleing and hi-jacking but i just had to let it out... nothing is right...

[MCM_Raine]

Oh Chocolate, *sighs* I wish I knew you really well on here so that when I say we DO CARE about you, you'd listen & understand.

*points to herself* Trust me, I know how you feel, I've been there...

Life MAY stink so badly right now that "sleeping" seems like the only answer, but life WILL GET BETTER. I promise you with everything I have. It WILL.

Just hold on tight, talk to whomever you need to, scream into a pull, punch the wall (just don't break any bones!) and stay with us. We CARE. Even if you think that no one else does, I can promise you they do. (I thought MY parents didn't care, but they did, they just had issues showing it.)

Feel free to PM me or any of your friends on here at any point in time. I have a 4 day weekend & I will be on here a LOT if you EVER want to talk ... or cry, or virtually scream, etc.

*tries incredibly hard to hug you through the computer lines* <--- It didn't work, so you'll just have to settle for a HUGE virtual hug.

[mash]

I think that somethings been put in the water....
Everyone seems to be depressed.

Choco...as I seem to have said to so many people lately....you ARE needed. People DO care about you. Please try to be strong. I know its hard (believe me I know) but just take some time out and sort out your head... Thats what I tend to do when I start slipping. It may not work for you though.

TALK to your friends/family also fellow SBFers. There seems to be a lot on here that suffer from the same disease...

Keep strong hun,

**Adds choco to list of "good thoughts" reciever**

[Queso]

Oh Choco please don't feel down. Believe me, the love from your fellow SBF'ers is REAL. You are a special part of our community, you have a unique niche here, you fill a special position that no other player could fill.

Now that said, I command you to feel better RIGHT NOW! Did that work? lol *huggles* I miss your happy-go-lucky attatude, when you are happy you are the type of person that makes everyone happy along with you. I seriously doubt that you are ugly in real life, in my minds eye at least I have always pictured you as very beautiful. Mabey thats because you are so beautiful on the inside. Mabey you could ask your parents to make you an appointmet with a counsalor, they can help you talk through your insecurities about your self and help you improve your attitude. IF you can't do that, or even if you can, please pm me if you ever want to talk. I'm here to listen, and I'm dead serious about that. Plus if this attitude keeps up, I'll probably start loading you with pms anyways lol *big hug*

[ChocolateGal]

Thanks guys! I don't think i'd ever leave SBF because it's just too fantastic!! Unfortunatly we've got a swimming week next week with the GRUMPIEST teacher availiable!!.. *Fingers crossed* thanks peoples *giant hugs*!!

[Trinity]

Aww! *hugs* I know how you feel! My life has been hell since I was 13. But, just know, I'm always here for you. We don't know each other too well, but feel free to PM me at any time! I'm not too good at giving advice, but I can be a pretty good listener. Just stay strong and know i'm here for you!

[Tanitsja]

life will get better, been there, its no fun, but dont loose sigth of the future, if daydreaming and figuring out what you want out of life is what you need to get through it, then do it, daydream is something you can do almost everywhere

and asking yourself questions on how you want it in the future, what is bad and what is good, etc, allows yourself to get to know yourself, and also makes you keep hope up and keep an eye out for options of change...so that when one come your ready to grasp it

it will come, i never doubted that somehow somewhere i would be able to break out, and i did, the one thing i did start doubting after closing on quarter a century was actualy finding someone to be with, a year ago i met someone in a online community, and we now been togheter for half a year, and i know we will with high likelyness have a long happy life togheter *s*

as for sleep not sure if it helps, but i would trade you if i could, i am stuck in bed with mono and constant tired and naping...so geting sort of fed up lol, would love to get out and about *s*

the basic is, dont give up, sooner or later change will come along your path and you will find the life and lifestyle that makes you happy *s*

and if you stick around long enough on communities like this, you will have many friendhsips, some will be temporary and will end with people quiting and moving on, but others will become long lasting and true, and may well cary on into real life, just be carefull should this become an issue

even at 24 i chose to take my father with me when i had no friends interested, as i went to meet 2-3 of the women i have goten to know online in england a year ago. And when i went to meet my curent bf the first time i had my sister with me, and also knew that the same people i met in england had met him, and could woutch for him being the person i got to know (my parents knew where we was, and called or messaged us as well to check up on us).

the main point is...one day you will look back, and say ok it was bad as it happened, but it also affected who i am today, and hopefully that is a person you like being, and such even if its hard now, in the future you wouldnt want to change it, as it could have changed who you became

so hang in there and value all your friendships, online or real life, because some of them are long lasting and you do not know which untill tomorow

[ChocolateGal]

Wow, that was *pause* long BUT truly great!! Thanks Tan!!

Thankyou so much Trin, even a listener is perfectly fine!

Tanks Everyone!!

[Tanitsja]

eh i edited several times, likely could written twice the length i had my rough patch i had to figth out over and i know the years it taken me to get where i am today, but its been worth it even if i still feel i have a bit to go before i am fully satisfied *s* hopefully i'll be there in a few months *crosses fingers*

my teens are not something i would want to relive, but i wouldnt change them either as they shaped who i am becoming *s* it makes me see it when others are strugeling likewise *s* and its enjoyable to reasure that things can and will get better and hopefully help make a lil in upholding the hope needed to get through whatever bumps are in the road